I am slightly anxious. A small swirl of adrenalin spins in
my stomach. It is 3pm and no one has shown up.
A couple of months earlier I was standing in front of 75 people
in my Sunday school class, trying to encourage them to action. I have always felt
like the local church should look like the community it lives in – it should be
a melting pot of cultures and languages. The town I live in is predominantly
Caucasian and Hispanic, with a few Ukrainians. People like to congregate within
their own community – it’s just the way of thing. It takes a special effort to
bring folks together.
I’ve heard it said the United States is never more
segregated then on Sunday morning – that doesn’t seem right to me. For several years
I have been trying to bring that vision to life – helping out at English as a
second language (ESL) classes on Tuesday evening; attending a local Hispanic
church once a month or so; and trying to learn the language.
Now the vision was a little bigger. A Cinco de Mayo
celebration at a local apartment complex will take 20 or so people to pull off
– some from my church, and some form our Hispanic church partners. It’s taken
me quite a while to set this thing up. There’s food, fixtures, permission, and
logistics that must be arranged. My friends at La Vida Nueva Church said folks
from the apartment complex would probably come – some times the do, sometimes
they don’t.
Our simple goal is to bring the communities together – to
encourage fellowship that brake down the walls that separate us.
A car-load of Hispanic guys drive by our tables – they crane
their necks to see what’s going on as they speed buy. The stakes are high – I
can see my church folks looking at me wondering if they had committed their
Saturday afternoon for nothing. A failure would damage my credibility, and
surely inhibit my ability to address the church in the same way, in the future.
And so… I find myself in familiar territory once again – the
“In between place.” My gift of administration has brought all the pieces together,
arranged everything that I could – now it was time to pass the ball and wait on
the Lord – my final hope for success lies squarely in His hands. I have no choice.
I have to live by faith.
I like this “In between place” – I am drawn to it. It’s like
traversing an icy ridge on the way to the summit – it scares and excites me
both. In the sheltered windless coves, where the coast line is steady, and
always in sight, it’s hard for me to see the Lord. He hides himself in the shadows of routine and
ritual. But in the “In between place” I can feel the breeze as he passes by me.
His gentle touch is revealed in the evidence of circumstances and outcomes… but
still I am nervous.
Before long, the first family shows up – a young couple with
two kids. Then a few more, and by 4 o’clock the place is rocking. I see my
friend Jorge who comes to my ESL class. He speaks English like I speak Spanish…
Más o menos. Our playful bantering communicates more than
language. Friendships are built in this way. The easy roar of warm fellowship
swirls from table to table as a gentle, easy breeze sweeps through the park.
I feel easy and happy.
And so the gamble pays off this time – it doesn’t always. Crashing
and burning a few times has granted me both wisdom and experience. But, not
this time – not today. This journey to the “In between place” finds the
fullness of God’s mighty purpose.
In my life the true blessing of God are found in these
places. Where a faith mines the substance that propels me along my journey –
where my eager spirit can finds the passion that drives my life.